yeah.. passed my HI exam..thank goodness.. tot i would gonna spend money retaking exam manz.. mind was totally blank when i was gonna start the paper.. damn scared i'll fail..

finally met my aj classmates.. 4 of them.. one din turn up.. its been more than a yr since i've seen them.. hahaz.. kinda lousy eh.. did lots of catching up.. talking abt uni stuffs... bfs.. life..
gossips.. lotsa stuffs.. feel good meeting up wif old frenz manz..

ya.. actually.. deep in my heart.. was still harping on the fact dat i did not do well during my A's...
was still harping the fact dat we did not do well in the vball comp when we were in j2.. there's always some regrets in life.. this feeling will juz live inside u no matter wat.. sometimes.. i realli hate it.. blamed myself.. but there's nothing i could do.. get on wif life..

its realli amazing to see someone change to a different kind of person when he/ she goes into a certain stage of life.. realli amazing.. in terms of appearance, in terms of character.. u will realli wonder how they changed in dat period.. n wat made them change.. izzit becos of peer pressure? environment??

if u ask me did i change?? i dun think i've changed much.. i'm juz the stubborn old me.. i'm still waiting to change.. sometimes... i juz hate myself for being me.. i feel lousy at times.. feel so dependent.. i've got this very low.. extremely low self esteem.. i hate myself for fearing of doing things.. fearing dat i will fail in accomplishing things.. fearing of rejections.. feeling so mentally weak.. i need help in this.. guessed i shld go for some motivational camps to help boost my morale..


but for now.. think i shld get a gd slp.. din slp well these few days cos of the exam.. nite
- posted by RaInE @ 6/17/2005 11:45:00 PM

 
~moody me~
hai.. been missing him.. he gone for 7 days onli.. but its like so long to me..
getting moody again.. of work.. of life.. dunnno.. hai.. used to be one confident person.. in pri sch..
but now.. getting more n more timid.. getting more n more introvert.. i noe i can't be dat way..
but i juz realli can't bring myself to open up.. sometimes its tiring to rapport build.. i juz find it difficult to open up topics.. i juz find it tiring.. help me!!!
anyway.. taking my HI exam on 17th june.. still havn't prepared much.. jia lat liao.. n this time got lots more to study.. haI~
anyway... bday coming soon.. hahaz...
got a bday wishlist liao.. hahahz.. =P
1) aimed a pair of nike shoes at suntec.. but i havn't tried on it.. din even see whether it suits mi anot.. =P
2) a sling bag
3) jacket..
4) more clothes..

as for to do list...
1) i need to jog!!! been trying to force myself to.. but still procrastinating..
2) get a hair cut n dye..
3) format n increase my ram for laptop...

meeting up wif my jc classmates finally... gers outing.. cooL~!! looking forward to it.. hee
cum on buddies n shuz n jing.. when's our next gathering??


think better go study a bit.. dun wanna waste money to retake manz.. cya all.. nite
- posted by RaInE @ 6/07/2005 11:27:00 PM